A little PPD I think

I am excited to NOT be pregnant anymore! There is nothing I like about the whole thing except the outcome!!! This was a slightly more difficult pregnancy then the first because I couldn't rest when I wanted to, Andy worked a lot, and I as super not well for the first 19 weeks. Cooper was, for the most part, a great kid. Because I was lazy, he learned a lot because he did all sorts of things for me. Yay for me being lazy! But, the whole time I was dreading having another little one...let alone a BOY!! How am I going to be able to handle TWO kids?? I know I can, and I know a bazillion other people handle them just fine, but it is quite scary. What if one feels neglected and not loved? What if they become little monsters? What will they be like as teenagers? What if they don't love me? How many times will I be at the emergency room with broken bones, concussions, ect? Life has become a lot more scary/stressful.

The first few weeks have been wayyyyy stressful for me because Cooper and Andy both got sick, and I did NOT want to get sick or for Parker to get sick (him being a newborn). I didn't want him even exposed, so basically Andy and Cooper lived downstairs and Parker and myself lived in our bedroom. It sucked big time!! Plus side for Andy... he got to sleep through the night for over a week! Lucky!

Thank goodness Parker is easy so far ( knock on wood). He LOVES LOVES to eat, and he is an EXCELLENT gas passer! :) I have a feeling he will catch up on his weight very soon. He looks so much like Cooper to me and Andy. His eyes are big and brown and he furrows his forehead. He has a little more hair then Cooper did, but it is the same color...brown. Cooper is so cute with Parker. He likes to give him kisses in the morning and he always says HI. He won't say Parker, instead he says "Guke" in reference to Luke (his cousin). One of these days he will get it right. He like to feed Parker his bottle... and he shares his toys too. But, Cooper likes his time with Andy a lot and will always choose to play.

I am definately cherishing every moment with Parker and Cooper. In my mind, I have always wanted TWO kids... and I have them. Yes, a girl would have been nice, but I have boys for a reason. Any girl who says she doesn't want a girl of her own is simply lying. I will always feel a little sad that I don't get to shop for prom dresses and hair accessories, but c'est la vie. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little jealous of those who have had and are having girls in the near future. Please understand that I am happy for them, but still a little sad for myself (sore subject). Selfish I know. But, I love my boys and with two kids because we can provide a good life for them and we can afford to spoil them a bit... (my most fav thing ever!!!) At this point in my life, TWO is all I want and I hope every one understands this. Maybe down the road a little miracle will happen, but right now my boys are all I can handle. Like I said, I would love to have a girl, but unless I am 100% gauranteed a girl... I'm not willing to try again at this time. Some people are destined to have all boys, and I am one of them.

I am sorry if I have been anti-social, but like I said... I have been a little stressed out about life. Plus, I was supposed to skate at Knott's for Christmas, but that fell through. I feel like all I am is a milk machine/diaper changer these days. My "out" of everyday life is going Christmas shopping. It helps me relax ... even with all the rude and crazy shoppers out there. I keep wanting to decorate the house, but I just can't seem to do it... don't know why, probably just my laziness. Oh well, it will happen one of these days.

So, that sums up my thoughts for the last year-ish. Parker's bday post will be posted soon I promise. I just felt the urge to rant tonight.

Th L.A. County Fair!

I'm a little behind the times with blogging, but oh well. We have been busy for sure! Anyhow, we went to the fair with my parents on "Hero's Day" (Sept. 11) to get out and have some fun. It was fun, a little on the hot side for me, but fun. Cooper played some midway games, rode rides, got to see the Budweiser Clysdale horses, saw a whole bunch of farm animals, ate a big hot dog, ice cream, ect. I'm pretty sure he enjoyed himself!!

Just a picture I liked taken when we got home from the fair.

Riding the elephant ride... he didn't like it at first, then didn't want to get off

Eating all Mommy's ice cream while watching the miniature train city

Waving from the "stagecoach"

Oh the giant slide... he screamed when he had to leave the slide, it was sad

He won himself a "Narnia" sword!!

August-ish

I never realized how easy I had it when I was pregnant with Cooper, until I was pregnant again! With him, when I was tired I could just cuddle with Kronk... now, I still get to chase and clean up after a toddler!!! Times sure have changed. I either procrastinate wayyyy too long with some things, or have to do things three times because Cooper likes to "help" me. Oh well, less then two months... then I may go a tad more insane for a bit! I have a lot on my plate these days, baby boy being the least of my stress, thank goodness!!! But, all in all I can't complain much. Cooper is as busy as ever. He LLLOOOVVVEEESSS Ice Age movies, and the Narnia movies. He knows them by heart (by music as well). He learns words from them like: boat, snow, Narnia, Sid, to name a few. But, the funniest thing to watch him do is stop playing with his toys when his favorite parts come on. He drops everything and watches. Otherwise, the movie is background to his playing with his toys (especially his cars and his bouncy balls!) He loves to clean... wipe down things and follow me with his "vacume". However, cleaning up his toys is not a priority for him, he does is begrudgingly. If you feed him, or take him outside... you will be his favorite person!

Cooper playing in the fountains at Victoria Gardens! He LOVED it... too bad he got blisters from his sandals. Well, he was in the water for a good hour at least!

Ya, don't know what he is doing, but he loves Kronk's batman cape.

He is modeling my new closet organizer!

I love my Uncle Jimmy!

I love my Uncle Jimmy. That is all!

Cooper Stew!

Ok, so I know it has been a while since I have posted pics of the little dude doing his thing. We have had a few adventures since I started feeling better. These aren't all, but it is a good start. I am always looking for pics so please email them to me or let me know you have them and I will get them!! I need to catch up on everything before little dude number 2 comes!!

TA-DA!! I love him!

"Fill the Boot" Cooper was excited to help!

Speaking of boots... he likes Grandpa's boots!

First haircut (20 months old)

Young Jedi Master to be

Happy Father's Day!

Trip to Sparks... he travelled in style! (Not to mention his friends Kronk and Mochi were also there)

Once again... rock throwing into the creek was such a highlight for him!

He was asking Grandma for more rocks

The fountains at the outdoor mall in Reno/Sparks...before he got soaked!

Soaked

Might as well just get drenched. Luckily I had just bought his first pair of sandals so they were totally useful!

At Chris's house in Yermo! Someone wasn't very happy with the water

Ok, since there were ducks, he was better.

See, better! He didn't really know what to think about the boat ride, but he sure did scream when Andy fell off the tube. He was very aware that Andy was there and then not there. It was actually funny, but I felt bad he got upset! However, who would have thought that in the middle of nowhere desert land, we would have such a great day?!?

Fourth of July at the pancake breakfast. Coop was a little afraid of Sparky.

Swimming in Anaheim with Dad... not a happy camper. He did get used to the pool once he settled down though and he didn't want to leave after that.

Sitting watching the other kids play in the pool.

Disneyland Carousel

Winnie the Pooh ride...not sure about it

Sweat head...notice the stroller! He was almost on the two hour mark for a nap (unheard of these days, cannot even believe it was in a stroller at Disneyland) but then the marching band started up right by us and scared him awake! Poor guy

He's watching his Dad!

I think he tooted

Crazy water boy!

I just wanted to say that I haven't been neglecting to blog on purpose... life is just happening (kind of like a waterfall...once it starts, you can't stop and you have this feeling of helplessness). Anyways, much has happened with everyone. Andy's Grandpa Arlo passed away the day after Laura had her baby boy, Luke!! A birth, a death, and family all over... it is the circle of life I suppose. Cooper is good, he is just so super active!! Ahhh, it wears me out! He is a good little dude, especially if you offer him food... to take him outside, or a bath!! He's getting so big, it is hard to imagine him ever being so little!!

I just turned 30...BOOOO! I feel incredibly old, pretty darn fat, and unable to do things that I would have like to have done. This better not be how the rest of my life goes!!

Anyways, here is just a little video of Cooper for those who aren't on Facebook...enjoy!

My Reason!

So, I just looked and it has been over TWO months since I have done a blog. Well, my reason is pretty good I think...well, it is good. I had been feeling sooooo incredibly like poop since the beginning of March, anything extra that was not a necessity to Cooper, Andy or my well being, did not get accomplished. I guess it is kind of old news now... but Kronky isn't going to be the only big brother around here!! Cooper is going to be a big brother come Oct!!! I don't think he quite understands what that means, but if you ask him where his baby is....he will lift up his shirt and slap his tummy. He will also show you where Mommy's baby is too!

I pretty much knew from the moment I found out I was pregnant that it was a boy. Nobody believed me...or they just tried to go against me because I was super positive it was a boy. But, I guess I could see why they would think girl... I was super duper sick this time. I made it through the first trimester with Cooper without taking anything for the sickness... this time, not so much. It sucked! I am holding him really high this time too! Basically, everything I didn't get to experience with Cooper, this little dude is making sure I get to experience with him!! Ugh!

Regardless of how I feel/felt/get to feel.... I am excited and scared! Two BOYS running around. I told Andy, these boys better be taught how to spoil their Mom like nobody's business!! Haha! For now, they can spoil me with being perfect little angels (ya, I know... won't happen) The only thing I am concerned about is, who is going to go shopping with me now? Cooper loves to go into stores.... just so he can run right out of them!

I can't promise that I will be any better with the blogs in the upcoming months, I barely get through the days alive. Life is a rollercoaster these days more then ever. I can take the easy way out and chalk it up to the hormones, but I won't take that route just yet. I will just say that I am adjusting to the ever changing moods of my little 20 month old!!!